Dear Barb, I'm so sorry I didn't see your message back when you wrote! And sorry to hear that you are/we're going through such a rough time. I truly hope you were able to stick to not smoking, because our "bad friend" is no friend. After my husband died, 2 1/2 years ago, after a lengthy ordeal with lung cancer, And one of my 4 kids stopped talking to me then also, I was still a smoker and just really didn't care...until 8 months later when pneumonia on top of my COPD almost killed me. At the time I thought, I just don't care anymore. My 3 kids that still we're talking to me all lived far away. I felt so alone and helpless. And I renremem thinking, I'll just smoke myself to death. Well, it doesn't work that way. The results of years and years of smoking lead to a slow kind of death that robbed me of the health I had hoped to still have in my retirement years. So I take it one day at a time and hope for the best. I got through most of the horibhor depression, with a lot of help from some wonderful people, people that I hadn't even realized we're caring friends! There are more people out there that care about you than you might think! Ask for help. I know it's hard, but most people are more than willing to help you.
If you did start smoking again, I hope you will try again to quit. It's so very worth it, and so are you! Hugs ((( )))
