I love the casino, but I have never been to the casino without a smoke (15 yrs). I play texas holdem, I also never had a good winning spree like last night--WOOHOO, I had a drink shortly after I got there, I was really thinking you might as well go get those cigs now, because you know you are going to want one. I sat down at the table, next to a smoker, who kept an unlit cig in his mouth until he went to smoke it. All of a sudden I started really smelling how the casino smelled like cigs. I took a big gulp of my drink, and than placed my bet, playing the game got my mind off the fear of failure, and the urge to smoke did not come until my body was tired of setting, that was around 2am, ( I was at the casino from 8pm to 4am), after realizing that I was sleepy and tired, I collected my chip and cashed out and went home with victory. I know I have come a long way, but I did not know that I would have the victory, I was thinking I would be telling you all today that I took a puff, At 2am I did want to ask the smoker next to me to let me buy a smoke from him, but my mind went to the the information I learned on whyquit.com, so I just kept my mouth closed, than the urge got strong and said to me it's just one puff, you will be able to put it down. I told my mind (cowardly and weak) that all it take to undo all I been working so hard for to end this relationship with cig will be all done for nothing, and my mind told me it's only been 3 week, you could not have accomplished much, I told my mind this conversation is over, I am going home and get some rest.
