Hiya Mombug -- great name by the way! Your post is an awesome one for all of us to see...it pays to be vigilant no matter how long it's been. Have you looked at the EX plan at all? The EX plan can help you to get started on identifying your triggers, tracking how much you smoke and relearning how to live as a non-smoker. You will find an incredible amount of support here!! We have so many awesome people who are successfully stopping, due to this site!! You are in the right place! When you do stop smoking, put up a post on the discussion page and you will get lots of support! I have found that the key for me is to remain positive -- it really helps to ease up on the mental struggle that we all go through. Also, I'd suggest that you read as much as you can, both here and on whyquit.com. Keep in touch and let us know how you are doing! Have an awesome weekend!