cat52 Believe me and everyone else here that putting a piece of paper with shredded pulp in it in your mouth (those aren't tobacco leaves you're smoking, it's a paper pulp product), lighting it, and sucking down it's nasty burning smoke, 4000 chemicals (literally), and a dose of healthy road tar will NEVER solve any problem. I know it feels like it will at least take the edge off but that's a lie from the nicodemon. The situation with your daughter will in no way change while you're out smoking for 10 minutes at a time. I know it seems impossible to cope right now but it DOES get easier. Do absolutely anything but go for that smoke. Bet you weren't sure in the beginning of your quit that you'd last 10 minutes let alone 10 days. But you HAVE made it 10 days without smoking, and you don't really want to go back to having to put out that 'last' smoke and start the withdrawals again. You might even just give up completely thinking that you "failed so why bother." It's actually EASIER to stay smoke free than to start the process all over. I promise this does get easier. A little background on my situation, I have bipolar disorder. At times, more often than I'd like to admit, just being awake is a crisis situation. Guess what I learned, smoking or not smoking didn't change anything about the crisis situations. They still come, I'm just learning to handle them differently. Be good to yourself, cry, scream, yell obscenities out loud or into a pillow, swing chickens, whatever it takes to get through that craving. It gets better and fewer and farther between but they can creep up on you. Pack a Life Preserver bag or box that contains lots of little distractions, gum, hard candy, a journal and pen, a favorite cd, games, books, whatever you like and put it in a prominent place at the ready for the next crave to come around. You can get through this WITHOUT going back to smoking. Stay close to Ex, we've always got your back.
Julie
93 DOF
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