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I am a 52 yr old mom and grandma. I started smoking around 15 or 16yrs old and mostly smoke about a pack per day. I have been mostly healthy, but in the past year I have been diagnosed with high blood pressure and cough all the time lately. I work in healthcare, so I constantly have to keep my addiction hidden. I tend to use cigarettes as an emotional crutch and have always believed that I could not handle life without them. I am sick of hiding the smell and feeling bad. I am afraid I will not be around to see my younger children marry or even graduate for that matter....much less my future grandchildren. I am motivated to quit- I am just scared to fail!!!