My name is Lorelai and I am gradually figuring out how this site works!! I figured out how to reply to discussions before I figured out how to introduce myself!! Anyway, I am a 41 year old wife and
mother to a beautiful little boy whose picture I used on my page. I have been smoking for nearly
30 years, which is really scary. I had a chest x-ray done during a physical in Feb. and it showed some early and possibly reversible lung damage and it really rammed home what I already knew. I have been wanting to throw this habit away for so long and I have just been too afraid.
And my biggest reason for needing to do this is that picture. I owe him. I need to be here for him.
I don't want him remembering his mama with a cigarette, freezing her ass off on the front porch because she's tied to this horrible habit. I don't want him to pick up smoking like I did, watching
my dad, stealing smokes from him at 10 years of age to experiment.
I'm in the relearning stage right now, and I gotta tell you, I am scared. I am so afraid to fail and I
want this so much. Anyway, enough of my rant for now!
