wow, i feel for you, mimi. i'm not quite there yet either. but i'm told to not stress the quit date thing. it'll come. had a friend who quit and she said "it just wore out" (it's welcome, i think). i've had moments i actually forgot to smoke. and this is really hard for me to do. but one thing: it's not just the hardest thing you'll have to do, maybe, it's also THE BEST THING YOU COULD EVER DO and this is what i keep telling myself. we should all get big prizes for quitting. OH, YEAH, WE DO! lots of little prizes. freedom, taste buds, money, fresh air, freedom . . .
and, HWC, have you ever actually smoked that you have to ask why? according to one book, we're giving up a long-time "friend" that we've relied on for years to be there through thick and thin. unfortunately the friend's turned sour. but i'm not afraid of quitting either, i'm afraid of the cravings. i'm not afraid of heights. i'm afraid of falling. i'm not afraid of water. i'm afraid of drowning. some of us smokers are much more reliant than others, so it's much harder.