Hi Tammy -
I soooo understand that journey! -- I quit for 10 years, was a happy, healthy, contented non-smoker and thought I would never smoke again for the rest of my life. Then, while my brother was dieing from cancer (from smoking) I was so sad and stressed, I thought I could smoke with my sister-in-law and then quit again easily. Oh, what a foolish idea!! I smoked for three years until now. We do have an advantage over those who have never known a successful quit before:
1) we know we are capable of doing this. After all, we did it once before.
2) we know that what they tell us is true, that it gets better, the craves do go away with time.
3) we know that life as a non-smoker is not the barren, disconnected feeling that we may have right now and that the addiciton tries to tell us will last forever.
4) we know from personal experience that life as a non-smoker is cleaner, more free, more fragrant, more energetic.
5) we know now that when they tell us "you can't have just one" it is soooo true. As someone said elsewhere on this site, "they don't come in singles, they come in packs" . . . and cartons, and cases of cartons, and days, weeks, months and, yes, years of butts, ashes, bad smells, stained teeth, coughs, wheezes and feelings of discouragement and disappointment.
Please get your feet back under you. You can do this, and best of all, you know you can because you have done it before. I'm just a few steps ahead of you. Today is 2 weeks for me! We are wiser for this painful lapse of three or four years. We can use this wisdom to get ourselves through this.
Blessings,
Dharmagirl
