Welcome to this wonderful community, Lisami -- You are so smart to quit at 45 -- I smoked for 53 years and quit 3 years ago with a strong desire to finally be free and the support of these great people. Do the reading, come here as much as you can, interact, blog about how you're feeling at any given time. Rant, rave, muse, whatever it is you need to do and there will be people here who will engage with you in whatever way you need at that time. I didn't read all the comments, but if you think you might pick up a smoke promise yourself you will FIRST come to this site and type HELP in the subject line. You will have support virtually right away.
Just in case you need a little more motivation, I did quit three years ago and haven't had a puff since, but I was in denial about my COPD for the last year I smoked. I'm sitting here now with oxygen on, and I need to take it with me to work. I remember when I was in my early 30's I saw a woman at church who was using oxygen, and I regret to say I looked on her somewhat judgmentally and thought "that will never happen to me." Hah! Worse, my sister has lung cancer, has been undergoing chemo, and also has pulmonary fibrosis and she's still smoking. So while you quit because you don't want to wait until you have an illness related to smoking, it's still a concept in your head (and that's the only way it can be until you have one). But listen to the folks here who tell you the real stories about real illnesses because they happen much more often than they don't. So I will say again -- you're smart to quit now.
I'm not on here as often as I used to be (shame on me) but if you ever want to chat, I'll get an email notification if you message me. You can do this!
