The one suicidal thought sticks out more the others happened like this, I walked out the back door and stood on the porch and before taking the steps down to the backyard, I looked up at a tree that hangs over the porch and driveway and thought to myself...'' I bet I could stand right here,(3 different nieghbors would have full view of where I was standing and what i would be doing)make a noose,toss it up in that branch,and hang myself and hang for a couple of minutes,before being noticed''. Then I stepped off the porch and continued to the garage to finish laundry.I remember saying to myself''What the hell was that?,Where'd that come from?''- Since I never had thoughts like this before and Chantix was new to my body,thats how I figured thats what and where the thought came from. Since I came up with that,the other thoughts were almost exactly like yours. Oh!,and same here about the gas-What's that about?!LOL!!!