Wow. It's amazing how one day can be so different from the next day. I'm struggling a little today. Once again that uneasy feeling has crept in. I know it has something to do with the disruption of my sleep. I've had a difficult time falling asleep over the past week and I get up two to three times during the night. I did massive deep breathing this morning and just made myself some chamomile tea. I came straight to this community because I know this will help me get over the speed bump. I get so angry with myself when I even think about going back to smoking. I don't want to smoke. I don't need to smoke. It's like bargaining with the devil. The price is too deep, so the devil is not winning, but I am trying to climb out of that pit. I am working to make it another smoke free day, so I can put day 26 in highlights on my calendar, which I do each morning that I've won the day before. Great vivid colors with the number. I plan on changing my colors from orange/blue to yellow/green when I hit 1 month of freedom. I look forward to that, which is helping me through this moment as well as coming to this community where I know everyone is rooting for me. Thanks for being there.
With love,
Michelle 
Could be. I am just sorry that this keeps happening, but I know this too shall pass. Thanks for the feedback.
-Michelle
Michelle,
First of all you are doing fantastic with identifying your triggers and cravings and taking positive steps to get through them! Better than I did at that stage of quit. The calendar is something I did as well. I printed one out, put it up on the entrance to the garage from the house since that was where I smoked most often. Each day I used a different color and wrote some words of encouragement at the end of the day. It was extremely helpful. Each time you refuse to dance with the devil is another step away from the old you and a big step towards the new you. A healthier, happier, and wealthier you!
Julie
Thanks Julie. Love the graphic!
-Michelle
Sandi, I'm holding your hand. Hope you can feel it. Your words are true and helpful.
-Michelle
Just following up with my peeps. Doing a little better. Work has definitely been great because it has allowed me to take my thoughts out of smoking. I am more optimistic at the moment and will take it one minute at a time to help myself work through feelings and thoughts today. Loved everyone's support.
Love,
Michelle
