Woke up feeling bummed....another day to struggle. As morning wore on I was more able to "lean into it" as its said. My kids are thrilled I've gone six days and no smokes. I feel so different physically. Much better.
Meanwhile my mind, as expected, keeps asking me dark questions: How will I enjoy myself without cigarettes? How long til I can just answer the phone and not be looking around for cigarettes. We/you know the drill.
Days like this I find myself forgetting all the basics I've learned here and need to remind myself of....because they work. I have to be faster on the draw than my nicotine addled brain. Go to the site sooner, say the mantra sooner, close my eyes and breathe first, not later, push myself to get busy on my own, not merely as a reaction to a crave. While I smoked, I was constantly in motion most of the time unless I was reading, napping, meditating. I can't sit in front of my laptop for long periods, for example. Now that I don't smoke, I am tentative trying to avoid areas (they are everywhere), activities that I know will trigger cravings. I must be patient with this process.
Perhaps some of you were lucky enough to stop and have things just kind of sail along. I'm guessing not many and not me either. But I'm going to do it.
Practice, practice practice!
mdmd
