seriously. I've been riding this craving out since yesterday afternoon about 4pm. I slept maybe 4 hours last night. I'm NOT going to smoke, I wish my body and brain would just figure that out and stop trying to wear me down. I didn't stop to get a drink to take to work with me because I knew if I stopped I'd be tempting fate and I don't have time for a slip up. I want this to be over and I don't want to go through this again. my head is killing me, I feel pukey, my head is foggy, I feel all floaty.....I refuse to give up and go through all this again.
I've gotten a glimpse at life without smoking and I like it. I was able to take my kids to a corn maze/pumpkin patch and not worry about where I'm going to smoke, did I bring a lighter, and have my kids irritated with me because they are missing out because of my stupid addiction.
