I sweet mesage from indian girl just popped up on my emails..I swear the girl is psychic..she always knows just when a pick me up is needed! I am still not smoking and I believe its been about 6 1/2 months now. Thats not saying I dont want to and havent said plenty of times.."today is the day I will be smoking again before the day has passed". Something or maybe nothing (hhmmm) seems to happen though and I dont. There has been a bit of a role reversal in my life and I just wanted too share. My father had surgery ( a portion of his bladder removed) due to bladder cancer which is directly linked to smoking. He has been a several (3-4) pack a day smoker as far back as I can remember. Over 40 years for sure. He has never said anythign too me about emphysema but is very barrell chested. ( we live several states apart so we dont have daily contact). He quit smoking for the second time about 3 months ago and he calls me often but now he asks "are you still not smoking"..its almost like you can hear in his voice that if I were too say Im smoking again, thats his green light to smoke also. I guess its hard to explain but I almost feel responsible to protect his quit. Thats ok.. I'll gladly take the job! Other than my quit still be a quit..the semester has started and its kicking my butt badly and im slowly having to restart my fitness goals..I got off track helping my mother move, settle and then move myself..and my class schedule with a full time job leaves very little time. Im glad to see some familiar names, sucess stories and mostly that after all this time..someone pops in on me and says hi! What a way to brighten someones hectic day! A true family of friends here..:) Best wishes too you all! You are all such blessings!
