relapse

[annie5]

I am at my aunts house and was doing really good until something happened. Soemthing happend with my 9 year old son and this 6 year old boy. I can't really talk about it on here, but it made me so upset that I aske my aunt for a cig. I know it must be no excuse, but I felt like I had no outlet. I couldn't take a walk, cause this was at night and a bad neightorhood. There was no where I could journal or read my bible cause there were so many people in the house. My husband is gone so I can't talk to him about it. I don't know what to do. It still upsets me. I am sucking alolipop right now, but thinking to go buy a pack. Any words of advice?
Annie