Started going back to my classroom, and reality struck. The reality of working. The reality of being in the dark. The reality of new people to meet, being unsure of how it will all go.
So now my triggers happen to be anxiety-related as opposed to relaxation/boredom. An' these past few days my smoking has peaked, at least in context of the last few years, where I've been smoking maybe 3-5 cigarettes a day.
I have to adjust and separate from the Anxiety Cigarettes, mostly by getting back on a quality exercise plan. Instead of coming home and saying, "Oh shit, I need a cigarette, 'cause all has been thrown in the air, so much to do, so much to do, so much to do", I need to A) Chill out because I can teach and have people to support me on the new materials I need to learn, and B) Get some exercise, call a friend, and burn an incense and read. Relax. Be serene peacemind outside of the workplace. Sometimes I forget it doesn't come without a conscious effort. Like smoking is the easy way out of hell of the mind. Must remember: it does essentially nothing.
Adjusting back to a regular sleep schedule is tasking, too. I went from mid-May 5am wake-up times, to struggling to get out of bed by 11am now. Tonight I take NyQuil as a temporary fix until I can get back to falling asleep early and waking up early naturally.
I embrace the new busy routine. Just have to adapt to it, too.
