not going well

[jabberjaws]

I set my quit day for today but it is not going as planned, as I definately havent quit. Frankly I didnt even try hard enough. This is such an addiction for me.  I have done the Chantix, almost quit for 3 months. The patches give me a headache and are too easy to just remove and resume smoking.

I am obsessed with smoking and no kidding when I try to quit all I think about is smoking, it is so bad I dream about smoking. Why does it have to be so hard for me?? All I want is to be smoke free and have tried many many times to make it happen. Willpower is not exactly one of my strong suits.

I want to be able to breathe better. Cant even walk up the steps without losing my breath. Not giving up but am having a had time making it happen.