nicotine mind games reaching 48 hour mark

[charon2]

Hello all. I am nearing the 48 hour mark with each passing moment... in less than an hour and a half!! I am staying strong, and still dedicated to this quit. I want nothing more than to be healthy. I don't remember if I mentioned this before, but any time I even THINK about lighting up, I watch one of those videos of someone dying of lung cancer. The young ones hit especially hard. I would definitely have to say that this quit would have not been possible without the wonderful people on this site. Thank you all for being so supportive, and for all your great ideas and advice!!

I think that the not smoking thing is playing mind games with me.... it is incredibly difficult to not smoke, and I'm thinking about it nearly all of the time, but then it seems easy. But then them moment I think, THIS IS EASY!!, I start craving, and i'm like, oh sh*t, why was I thinking this was easy?? This is the hardest effing thing ever! Is that strange? And then there is the instinctual reach for the cigarette, even though I KNOW I've quit. I just finished lunch, and a little light in my brain went off, and I was looking for something to do with my hands. I was thinking about reaching for a cigarette. And then I was like, oh yeah, I quit. Now what do I do?

I know that these feelings will pass eventually, but I feel like i'm in hell a bit.

Oh yeah. I think I cried like four times yesterday.

[aly2]

Hey Charon~

Rock on sister! 48 hours! Awesome.

I totally appreciate your honesty here too- straight up~ it is really, really tough.

If you need an ear to unload on I am here. You can definitely do this. You (and me, and all of us) can and will relearn how to live without the patterns of smoking, There are lots of people here who can help with that. I am a newbie here too and people have really helped me get through it (a few hours from 11 days for me...wow...)

So yes, all that advice, positive thinking, plenty of water, gum, lollipops etc- all that stuff can help~ but letting yourself be honest and go a little insane the 1st few days is also totally ok.....

Go for it girl. You can do this. Every moment you are showing your nicotine receptors who is boss.....

Peace~
Aly

[diana3]

Congratulations on your 48 hours!!! Have you ever lost a friend or family member? What you're going through sounds like grief to me -- when someone dies you think of them constantly for the first days or weeks - you reach for the phone to call them, then remember you can't. You cry. Well, I think the tears you're experiencing are GREAT and healing!!! Welcome them!!!
My mother died last week (old age stuff). We had hospice for almost a year, so there was a lot of time to prepare - one of the things the hospice chaplain told me might help you... There was a study done of the tears associated with grief and other tears...there are actually healing properties in the tears associated with grief!!! Cry-on, girl -- let those tears help heal you.

[charon2]

Thank you, Aly and Diana! Yes, I've been a little nutty the last two days, but it is worth it. I already feel HEALTHIER. It is the weirdest thing that two days of not smoking can make that big of a difference. No, I've never lost a person that I am close to. I had an aunt die a month or so ago, but I wasn't close with her. Maybe I am "grieving" my cigarettes. I was definitely in a depressed funk yesterday. I'm trying to be more positive today, though.... Thanks again, you guys are sweet! 🙂

[erikamarie1453]

Keep up the good work your doing great and on your way to becoming a healthier you!! Your way to pretty to smoke anyways girl... Good job don't give up it's hard but it's possible!

[selina]

Not sure what day you are on, but I am on day 8. I made it through the first week. The first few days were hell. I stayed in my office with my mp3 player on for 2 days straight doing data entry, medical coding and reading manuals, so I wouldn't be so crabby. I find that I like the freedom I have with out smoking. My daily schedule doesn't include that anymore. Hang in there and keep staying strong. You can do it.
Selina