ok, made it one day without waffling. the thoughts came, they left, i survived. have adopted the stopsmokingonline.com philosophy of transmuting cravings into pure energy. i was very skeptical of this approach until i tried it and found how very easy it is.
the nicodemon is so diabolical! he keeps telling me i can have just one, i've proven how i can easily take it or leave it and he sounds so convincing, so logical. I know this is all normal, that there's no such thing as just one as i've proved this week with all my stops and starts. fear, my worst enemy, still rearing it's ugly head from time to time.
the physical withdrawal is really no big deal. it's what goes on between my ears that takes up so much energy. not as much energy as smoking did though.
thank you everyone here who has given me so much support this week and kicked my ass when i needed a good ass-kicking. day two, here i come.