I still havent smoked! My ex contacted me and I thought I would want a cig immediately for stress relief. Then it hit me. He has been using the excuse to do hard drugs for years due to stress. And yes thats y we arent together and I dont want him around my kid. Ive eaten dirt and will do again to keep my kid safe, so I know I didnt smoke cig around my kid and only smoked a few most days, I realized that excuse wont fly with me anymore. All the drama...prolly court...ever since I was pregnant the thought of not being around my son a couple hours when he isn't at school kills me. I literally cant breathe. I also know he will quit all that crap if and when he wants. Im done, im part old sam part new sam. im still keeping the weight off ive lost so that feels good to be in smaller clothes. Prayers needed very much. Thanks in advance 🙂
