hmmm

[angellad]

so my quit date is suppose to be april 1..i had it as may 1 because my birthday is next month and i wud hate to "quit" and get to that big party day and relapse 🙂 but they said i should go for april 1 bcause my answers indicate that i am not truly ready!!  i know thats not positive thinking buut thats my thought process. i am really loving reading success stories and daily walks with the struggle...that just gives me confidence that i will quit...buut today its snowing outside and i am down to the last in my pack...ive had this pack for two days...not a long time buut YAAY for me 🙂  my attitude is harsh right now and my temper is almost non existant since my cutdown..AND MY SON IS FEELING EVERY SIDE EFFECT...LOL he is not getting abused buut poor him~~IM NO NONSENSE RIGHT NOW! sooo since its snowing and i hav no powersteering in my car...SHOULD I GO GET A PACK OR NOT!! i would love to say i wud make it a night thru this right now buut im nervous...If i was at home by myself then i might suffer thru my mania buut with my son there...wud that be considered cruel and unjust punishment???

im jus sayin

[vickys79]

If it was me I would get a pack.  You are not ready to quit, and you will make yourself and your son miserable if you go without. Maybe that is bad advice but I know that is what I would do.

[JonesCarpeDiem]

yeah and besides, hows he gonna learn?

[dragonfly3]

          if your quit date has not arrived, you are not ready. Don't put you son through any more  of your quit than he has to. This is your struggle , our struggle. Unfortunately our families have to bear the brunt of our quits. I'm on day 4 last night my husband had to leave the house due to the fact that my emotions are all over the map. go get the smokes.

[JonesCarpeDiem]

either way, you show him how much power cigarettes have over you and this isn't something you toss a coin over.

I just can't tell someone to smoke on a quit smoking site, so just pretend i didn't say anything.

And, be very careful if you go.

[angellad]

i broke down and bought the pack of cigs...i drove pasted by the gas station on my way home and then drove straight passed my place and went to the convenient store..~~sigh~~

THANKS FOR THE INPUT..

[JonesCarpeDiem]

if you hadn't quit, you didn't break down.

you just chose to continue until ? your quit date

[angellad]

i am going to contiune until i quit! my quit date is a target  aand a reasonable one! i would like to quit before then buut idk i am different i guess. i have NO CLUE as to why i smoke. there's no real rhyme or reason to my triggers!! watever im doin i can basically smoke or escape to smoke!! iknw i am addicted buut its not coming as easy and clear cut as it seems to for sooo many others. i am like a "short bus" quiter.

anyways, i can see what wudda happened had i of not stopped and got them...picture this.

        a very whinny, stubborn, bull headed lil boy comes home from school and i am approaching the dreaded wave of a nic fit...he sits down for his afernoon snack then time for homework...he doesnt wanna do it and is now whinning!!! buut by time this situation hits its peak...my nic fit is almost gone...AND WE MAKE IT...thru the first few..then we hit a big tantrum from the boy aand i hit a big peak from the lack of nic in my body...we r snowed in wit no escape or solution in site...i shut my room door...he keeps knocking til i come out~head spinning~arms whaling~and i scare him soo bad he pees on himself and locks himself in his room...then i have to call 911 or his dad(911 wud be better) to get him out...pay tons of money for therapy..and possiby go to jail!!!

  sorry...I AM REALL NOT MAKING A JOKE OUTTA THIS...buut seriously thats what i was thinking when i passed the first gas station home..then i drove straight to the mini mart by my house and got them!!!  gotta love those overactive imaginations 🙂   i am going to keep tryin until i do...

IKNW I CAN DO IT...wen  blog its about wat just happned and wat i was thinkingat the time..this is how my journey is going

[JonesCarpeDiem]

Well,

just

OUCH!

[angellad]

nothin  buut love from this way jonescarp!! i appreciate EVERY comment..I AM VERY SILLY AND ANIMATED...i most of the time lol at my thoughts soo wen i get to writing sumtimes animation comes with it and i can give you a quick peak at what i see in my head...

plus im gettin a lil more emotional with every cig i DONT smoke...PLEASE BARE WITH ME 🙂

[Strudel]

You said you have no clue whay you smoke. You smoke for the same reason all of us smoked.....you are addicted to nicotine. Really - that is the answer. It is not helping you deal with stress....trust me on this. Why should you trust me - because I thought the same thing.....until I read and learned about this addiction. Then I quit (208 days ago) and found out what a BIG FAT LIE it is that smoking helps us deal with stress! It doesn't!! Please - go to: http:quitsmokingonline.com and read. PLEASE! I think that it will change the way you think....and it will help.

You can do this!! Take care!