okay so ive tried chantix twice. its been sinci april 19th and just recently ive bought three packs of cigs. smoke a few and throw them out and repeat the process. im constantly trying to make excuses for myself to make smoking okay. im so frustrated. its like i cant do anything anymore because i cant smoke. i dont like it even though i have the power to change. ive gained weight since april and i am feeling really down about myself. i dont like it at all but alls i want is junk food. im looking for support and dont know where to turn. at least my addiction to smoking is cigs and not an addiction to something worse. i dunno what to do i dont know what to say i dont know what im doing here. help!