this emotional rollercoaster is so cyclical... i'm kind of back to being sad a little bit now, i just miss "my old friend the cancer stick". maybe it's just the newness of the QUIT wearing off and now my brain is like "well that was ok for a break, but now back to the cigarettes please". i know that i'll be ok, but it just sucks to keep going through these low points and hard times, i was kind of hoping that it would be mostly gone by now (day 9). I have also realized that not all ex's are good to talk to for support... some are negative and tell you "it's never going to go away... you will ALWAYS feel this way... you will always want to smoke for the rest of your LIFE!!!" (do they think this is helpful?). I think i'm just kind of sad feeling that my "JOY" is gone from life... isn't that soooo riduclous? i'm just taking one day at a time and allowing myself to experience whatever i feel, but not stay in that moment too long... i just tell my brain "think what you may, but you are not getting a cigarette... NO MATTER WHAT!!!", that helps a bit. i'm a big overwhelmed right now, i'll just keep plugging along... it's the whole 7 stages of grief. I guess this whole process has just been different than i expected it to be... i am STRONG... i am committed... i am a NON-SMOKER!
