day 173

[thebears8171]

I had surgery yesterday to remove my first ever bladder tumor. I hope it is the last. Dr. said smoking is the number one cause of bladder tumors. I am still very freaked over it. Dr. told hubby that it is cancer, but that we caught it fairly early. I have another appt next week then one every 3 months after that. the one thing that keeps going through my mind is "Who's going to take care of my babies?" I know that seems a little dramatic, but for those that know me you guys are used to it. So, here I am trucking along on this yellow brick road to........where? Cancer? God only knows. Still trying to find my place in this world. BTW Are there any Pagans out there? I am a very interested person on this subject.  Thanks yall stay strong and never ever think that one puff wont hurt. You know as well as I do that it will

Good day all!!

Leigh

[Patty-cake]

Leigh,

I'm so sorry for your bad news. I understand why you feel like panicking, but spending your energies on those feelings is counter-productive. You need your energies for healing and loving your babies right now.

God Speed with your healing.

[thebears8171]

Thank you Patty. I am kinda lost at the moment

[JonesCarpeDiem]

I hear you. unexpected health news aint no fun.

all we can do is

Stay the course and stay in the run

[JonesCarpeDiem]

(ps: 2 days ago,  I left the dr's with a sheet of paper that said everything they did at the appointment)

there was something they hadn't told me with the same impact as when I saw the writing. "CHRONIC KIDNEY DISEASE" stage 3

I got them scraping my esophagus for cancer cells every 3-4 months.

WTF did we do to ourselves?

[Thomas3.20.2010]

Tap into the positive energy that radiates the world and use it for healing! Use all the anti-cancer skills you have and learn some more and visualize yourself 100% healthy! There are lots of great resources that can help you! Now is the time to cry but tomorrow is the time to dry your tears and counteract your fears with life affirming ACTION! I'll keep you in my thoughts! Many. mnay people care deeply about you, Leigh! Chin up!

[froguelady]

Leigh, you are in my prayers.

[joyeuxencore]

YOU are going to take care of your babies...I can't imagine how you feel right now but I can imagine you vibrantly healthy and free of all dis-ease...they got it early! EXpect the best!! I am going to your page to introduce myself! xo

[Strudel]

Sending best wishes for your recovery! Congrats on 173 days! Please take care!