Description
I am 51 years old and was never big smoker but had the habit since I was 16. Started quiting when I was 18. I new that it was leading me down the wrong path in life. I have always hated the smoking habit even though I was a smoker. I quit at the age of 21. It was two years before I got pregnant with my first child. I did not start again until my daughter was 8 months and then it was an ocassional cigarette. (Did not have the money to buy them so I would have one with my neighbor when she got home from work). Then I quit again when I got pregnant with my second child. Started back when I got out of the hospital. Again, the ocassional cigarette. From that point until I quit for 10 years I fought the battle of cigarette smoking even though I only smoked 3 or 4 a day. (Those cigarettes were my friends. Those few moments a day with these friends made me feel like I was the one in control...can you imagine that...I had a very controling husband who did not want me to work and would not support my needs to get out of the house occassionally) Anywho I called on the Lord to help me quit my closet smoking because I felt that I was "cheating" on my husband. The Lord heard me and together we started a program where I had to explain to myself why I needed or wanted a cigarette. Then I would smoke my cigarette. After I finished (all of 5 min) I had a "talk " with myself as to how I felt about the cigarette and did it help with the reason or need I had to smoke. Wow was that an eye opener. That 5 min. did nothing for me in relation to why I had lite up in the first place. So I layed down the last few cigarettes I was addicted to and found new friends. Church, teaching CCD, starting a youth group in my church singing in the choir and on and on. I felt great about myself and in the process found out that if it wasn't cigs that my husband like about me then he would find other things. Soooooo after 25 years of marriage I quit the habit of him. Unfortunately I picked up the cigarette habit again and with full force. I am up to 25 cigs a day and now it's time to quit for me. I am quitting this Saturday Dec 19, 2009 along with my daughter. It is her son's birthday and he wants us both to quit ,as well. So I just ask that anyone who reads this will say a prayer for me and my daughter that the Lord will send us his grace and strength. We both feel that our quitting is what Our Father in Heaven wants for us and we always strive to please him.
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Brief Description
51 years old,recently divorced, 3 children all adults, work in home improvement
Website
No website in profile.
Location
Charlotte Hall, Maryland
Interests
Photography, Singing, Dancing, Outdoor activities
Skills
managerial, some computer skills
