baaad luck

[hamptons]

Hi my ex friends: I am feeling like there is a black cloud of nasty smoke following me around,and I am tired of it. I feel I quit the nasty cigs @ 343 lovely days and nights,But I still want to smoke! I will not do this,I made a promise to myself.me.me.me. This black cloud I am fighting is starting to clear......By saying this I mean I am going forward not backwards,not one bit. I have days of feeling disapointed for what reason only God knows. I am so dam proud of myself it makes me smile @ me,the one with the new back bone. The exer's that have read my other blog's(do not know how to get them back) well you my friends know I can tolerate anything!lol. NO WATER!!! ha haaa   I'm renting a room for now and the guy hate's dog's a swear he does. My dog is so dam quiet and so loving it pisses me off when this landlord tries to kick him in the ash. If I had another route out I would be gone. I'm not giving up. Baaaad luck isn't easy-it's very tiring. That's when  even at 343 days of my awesome quite seems if I gave in and just smoked one It would help me in this dark place i'm in. See my friends ya can't put that guard down!!! You have to take it and beat it up,smash them all. use that back bone. I'm being tested,I would think they(Cigs) would be afraid of me by now.lmao. I love all of you'I appreciate all of you. I am so proud of my quit and your's my friend. ~peace~ is finally within. Deborah. N,O.P.E. p.s. next court date with the ash landlord was pushed up because his lawyer dumped him. Luv that Karma......

[YoungAtHeart]

Remember and repeat after me:  "Smoking will not do ONE thing to make your life or your @ss-kicking landlord any easier to bear!"  It will just take away the ONLY thing in your life over which you have total control.

Let us know when the court date is rescheduled.

Hang in there!

Nancy

[TerrieQuit]

Deborah, You are doing so well Chin up, my friend! You and your quit are awesome! and you are almost a 6%'er! Congratulations on 343  DOF! You are truly very strong! Hang in there!

Terrie  130  DOF

[candylance]

Don't YOU just love Karma!! And such a nice dog!! Who in the word would want to be cruel to a dog mindin' his own business!! So glad YOU still have your MARVELOUS 343 DAYS smokefree!! Please try at every expense to keep it growin' that way. WE love YOU!!

[cpsono]

If that a-hole tries to hurt your dog, you need to have him arrested!!  Or I'll come there and kick his ass!   Seriously.   DON'T SMOKE over it though.  And keep your dog away from that MEANIE!!!

[Terri103]

You are doing So good Deborah!!  I wish you had a detachable backbone----you could take it off and swing that strong hard backbone over his head if his mean foot comes near your dog!!  What a crum-butt he is.  I am glad that no matter what, you haven't smoked.  You have had quite the time of it all, and smoking was not an option!!  yay to you!!!

[cocos_mom]

Congrats on keeping strong in spite of some bad luck. Remember there's always going to be good and bad days, but we control what we decide to do with it. You're spirit and faith will get you through this one.

And I'd like to kick the landlord back for ya.

Jackie

[kristen-9-7-15]

Awesome job!! Almost a year!!

[summer-07-06-15]

Congratulations on 343 days.  Almost  to the line . making 6%  believe when you don't want go back to start.  Under your profile on your page. There a list go to blog, click on the blog, that should show your past blogs.

[JACKIE1-25-15]

I am glad that you have the inner strength to endure and perserve no matter what ever life brings.  Your committment is awesome.  No matter what you are going through you will not smoke.  I wish everyone had your determination.  Good luck with the landlord situation.  Be Blessed. 

[Eric_L.]

Dumbasses abound! 

You can do it.  343 days awesome.

[Barbara145]

Hi Deborah.  You are such an interesting lady.  You are living your life for sure.  This too will pass.  Everyting will be o.k.  Hang in there.  Can't wait until you are presented your key to the 6% Club!  P.S.  You are near an anniversary.  I have heard be extra cautious.

[elvan]

You are so close to the 6% club and you have already gone through so much...I know that YOU know that smoking would solve nothing and would just HURT you.  Take it from someone who learned that the hard way.  I have 663 days today and I could not be happier that I have stayed with this quit.  I am convinced that I would not be alive if I kept smoking.

Things HAVE to turn around for you and that black cloud has to turn white and fluffy with streaks of your favorite colors.  My thoughts and prayers are with you, my friend.  I have thought of you so many times since your very first blog!

Love and peace and coming joy!

Ellen

[MarilynH]

Hello my friend, rock on Deb keep going forward because you are very, very close to the 6 % club, they'll be many of us taking turns holding the door open for you to enter in so congrats on 343 DOF and counting right straight towards the one year milestone. Stay strong and keep your beautiful dog away from the A hole, I hope that you can get a place to yourself, Lord willing the courts will award enough money to do that. 

Marilyn 

[JonesCarpeDiem]

I've got something bah-der for you....

[JonesCarpeDiem]

and if that doesn't makje you think

[MarilynH]

Aaah Dale, you just made me smile big time. ☺

[hamptons]

You have made me cry all of you! I feel all your comments and believe every one of them. I'm trying so hard to keep my back bone going strong, You are truly my angel's all of you. God bless. And thank you from the bottom of my heart. Dumbass's lawyer dumped him so we go back on the 25th of this month. I just want this hell to be over with.... win or lose I know that I did what I had to do and without a dam cig. yes I am positive that I proved such strength'patience and you my friends keep me going. I love u all. I have to stop cuzz tears are getting all over my new ciomputer. p.s. My dog took care of his own business with the new landlord he stiff necks him and carrie's on. It truly is so hilarious. Of cource i trained my dog? lol  xxxxoooo