about to CRACK

[alex7]

I'm having such a bad day that i just want to crack. the urge to smoke is so bad i can taste it. i can't stop crying my emotions are a mess. this is day # 1, it been pretty good besides today. I can't stop pacing the house i feel like ripping my hair out. Has anyone felt like this!!!!!!!!! Help!!!!!!!!!!!! i just going to loose it today.

Why is this happening i should not be going through withdraw any more............

I just need to vent and need support or maybe just 1 cig to tame that urge cause i had it for about 1 1/2 hour, and they say it last on 20 min BULLS--T!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[barbara42]

DO NOT SMOKE, that is what your addiction is telling you, this too shall pass, if you break down and smoke, it will only prolong the torment so do not. go get some ice cold water, drink juice, chew gum, stay on here and vent, do what you have to do, just beat the crave, it will go away peace!

[judy9]

Hey Don't have that cigarette !! It won't help. You CAN fight this nicodemon inside you !! Just chew on something besides a cig.butt. Try carrots or sunflower seeds. They help keep your hands busy............. Write Back..........

[cozie]

Hang in there....having a cig wont make it better...if you need to cry then cry...let the emotions out..or just sit and try to relax...deep breaths ..you will be ok..

[nicole]

this is day 1? If this is day 1 yes you are going to have withdrawals. I know its hard not to think about it but your mind is making your body want it then your body freaks out! mind of matter here. You can do it. Breathe .........breathe......breath.....and if you feel the need to freak out then do it. JUST DONT SMOKE..you can do it.

[dessa]

Day 1 sucks, I mean really sucks, can you go outside and scream? vent to us--let us know how you're doing.....

[alex7]

Its day 10 that why i am so confused. i have been so god and out of no were this urge just slap me in the face and it don't pass. i'm telling ya i can taste the cig thats how bad it is. I AM TRYING VERY HARD NOT TO GET IN MY CAR TO GO TO THE STORE!!!!!!! not i good day at ALL. CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!!!! sorry just loosing my mind over here.

Feel like the demon has this battle. But i will keep FIGHTING to the END you DUMB DEMON!!!!

[alex7]

THANK all of you for your support.

[judy9]

Yeal breath in, breath out...Fight this urge, it will go away.................... "Before giving in to that one cigarette, REMEMBER, they travel in PACKS."

[judy9]

And Packs become CARTONS again.........

[alex7]

Judy you just made me laugh thanks that was funny "they come in packs" lol

[judy9]

But it's true, boo-hoo-hooo... Please don't get in your car and go get any. Just think how you can brag about NOT doing just that today.

[dessa]

I had a couple awesome days in a row and was thinking oh I totally got this beat...and then the demon stuck up and started whispering. I sipped my lobelia laced water and told the demon to f*** off.

[angela6]

Oh no Alex, my day 10 & 11 were bad for some reason too. I attacked my husband with the iron (spraying the water on him like the made women I was). Now I'm through it and feeling much better. You can make it through this day. Go outside and get some fresh air, it will do you some good. Got a treadmill? Walk it off.

[spectrum]

it is your own fight now my darling....you decide who is stronger....my advice.....mmmmm...just concentrate to ''survive'';) for an hour, than 2, than day....and you are going to be just fineeee....p.s. treat yourself with something nice....me....i am about to;)

[nicole]

day 10 is different than day 1 lol........just by the number...im sorry i thought you meant day 1. im there too. and its hitting me hard to...yesterday i was like i got this...today im singing a different tune...lol hang in there we CAN do this.

[alex7]

thats so werid, you would thing that after the 3rd day it would be better, but i feel ike its the 3rd day again... WHY??????????

i don't understand this crap.
I just came from outside and beat the living hell out of my recyling bin with a coke bottle. the neighbors must think i've gone mad.

[dessa]

I find smashing glass to be hugely helpful!

[barbara42]

who cares about the neighbors, you do what ever you have to, that is what is so misunderstood about this addiction, i am like you, i thought that after three day,s it would not be so hard, WRONG, i think the mental part is the hardest .just when you think you have it beat, it roars like a lion, that is when we have to be aware of the mind craves, they will lose their power, just alway,s gaurd your quit peace!

[judy9]

aawww Alex, it will get better. Hang in there,girl. Don't give in, even if you have to run around the building a couple of times to wear yourself out. Just do what-ever it takes. Personally I love peanut m&m's or sunflower seeds. They help keep you busy.

[alex7]

you got that right he lion was sleeping and it woke up today pissed OFF!!!! I won't give up (i hope). and food boy i have to stop that i have gained weight and i hate it, and don'y know what is worst.

[melro1973]

Girl... has anyone else been there? Read my post "Is this candid, open & honest enough for you?" on the Candid Quitters board. That was my Day 10. I seriously think I was an inch away from losing my mind. Today is Day 14 for me. I still haven't smoked. And thanks to the amazing people on this website, my mind is in a much better place. Do anything you've got to do to stay quit. You don't want to start this quit all over again. Think of how proud of yourself you'll be after this.

[kalaine]

Alex - really hang in there. Go for a walk, call a friend, take a bath.....cry if you need to!