It's been 5 years, the milestone I've been looking forward for nearly 2 years. It is what one of our former EX told me: to be patient, that 5 years will be the time when everything: the cravings, or memories of smoking will fade away and my life will change forever for the better, and the remembrance of an almost long life of smoking will no longer be a troubling factor in my life.
And I believed her from my heart, and looked up to her nearly 7 years experience.
And one day, she was not an EX anymore, just like that; an outing, a group of smoking friends, maybe a drink too many, who knows? And my heart bleeds for her.
But I have not given in, I am still an EX, and some days are easier than others. But I no longer believe a point in time will mark a drastic difference in how having a smoke will impact me; once an addict, always an addict!
How do I keep it so? I make a choice every day ; I no longer think of it first thing in the morning, but there are other times during the day when I do, and every time I make a choice.
Will I be strong enough to make the same choice for the rest of my life? Who knows?
What I know is that if ever the desire to smoke becomes too strong, this community will be here to talk me out of it! You did it so many times during these 5 years, when I felt my resolve getting week, you can always show me the truth, if I am here, is because I want to stay quit!
So thank you for supporting me for all these years, your friendship was instrumental in bringing me to the 5 years free of smoking, ThankYou!!!
Now that i said it, I can step out for a smoke! KIDDING!!!
