I got fired today. From a job I've been at for 4 1/2 years that Ive hated for the last 3 1/2.
I wanted to leave so bad but never could make myself do it. Was always worried about what would happen.
Kinda like the 20 years I spent smoking cigarettes. Man I really would "like" to quit, but what will happen when I do? While it was hard initially, it gets easier. My life has become better as a result.
While initially, I was so angry that my job has treated me so bad for most of the duration of my employment, when I left out today it felt like I just dropped a 500lb gorilla off my back.
I no longer have to walk in that door and have that awful feeling that 8 hours of my life is about to be wasted again today. God, I've been in such a negative state for the last 3 1/2 years, and stressed myself out so much trying to get the approval of people who only approve of lies and deciet.
The lesson in all of this is that I have a choice, if something I am involved with in my life is detrimental to my health, physical or mental, it's my choice to allow it to drag me down or cut it loose.
I know I will find another job. One where ethics, morals, and integrity, along with a driving spirit to be the best you can be, are attributes that are recognized and rewarded. I am sure such places still exist. In the mean time while I'm looking for work, I think I'd like to do some volunteer work and help someone I don't even know just for the sake of doing something positive.
Life is too short to be wasted away allowing negative things to dominate your life.
Thank all of you for your encouragement and help with my quit, God bless you all.
