Jumping right back into it though. Smoked my last few this morning. Smoked yesterday because I was angry about my son and disappointed that my only brother doesn't even wish me a happy birthday. I try so hard to have a relationship with him even though he's in Seattle and we're in Massachusetts. He gets me mad. Angry and cravings don't work out too well for me. I have to quit. I'm in so much pain with recovering from this hip surgery, if I don't stop, my circulation isn't going to get any better and my healing will be slower. I don't want to be in pain anymore. I'm getting tired of it. They don't give out pain meds like candy like they used to!! Not that I'd want them but there's nothing that touches the pain and I hate it. I want to keep up the not smoking so I can heal:):)
