My house is a stinking den of stale smoke. I can't get the odor out. As the days of my quit add up. Thank God I am at 24 days. I am begging anyone that has the foggiest clue how to get the smoke damage out of my house. I was thinking vinegar and laundry soap combined as a wall cleaner. I have that popcorn ceiling stuff so plan in the spring to have it painted. So that really can't be dealt with. I have done tons of laundry. I was wondering around looking for the fire. Seriously I thought maybe I had left on an appliance to discover its my house. My family kept saying they couldn't smell it. But walked down the hallway and got a woof of smoky stallness. Just grrrrrr growl. I had painted the house in the summer and destroyed it with smoking. I am so aggravated by this. But then again I am dealing with high emotional responses to small things. And I thank all of you that shared with me that my crying fits are going to subside and it will be fine. I am starting to see the sunshine in my day and coming out of my cave. I pulled the drapes back two days ago and stopped the long long series of watching Netflix movies. I decided if I was going to be emotional I might as well get into it. So watched every single inspiring movie I could find. Me and a bowl of popcorn. tears falling (ridiculously so) , just letting it heal me. Realizing (through ravelation) that I have been using Smoking as a method to push down my emotions. Every time something got emotionationally heavy I would lit up. So I faced that demon. You know crying isn't something that will kill you. But smoking IS!!! So I don't mind my new emotional self. Now that I was handed this HUGE discovery. NO MORE EMOTIONAL STUFFING, I will just let me be a GIRL. Its OKAY!!!
