I am at 294 days quit, but my depression took ahold of me. I am just so upset at myself. I was so positive & full of life when I started this journey and now all I want to do is just lay in bed and sulk. What is going on with me. These new feelings of saddness and anger has really taken a toll on me especially when I normally don't feel them. I would only back away from people or things that would upset me. Now I am faced with them head on.
I am proud of the quit, but other than that....I just don't know. Digging a hole is only going to make it deeper, but it is where I want to go, because I am not bothering anyone else. The problem with that is the hole just keeps getting deeper and deeper with no light. This is just not working. The consistant battle with one's self over the negative feelings vs the positive. Why fight then?....you don't need to. Start loving the battle, because it is letting you know that you are alive and well.
I mean seriouslly, who would have thought we would be here and be this far ahead? Noone especially if you didn't either. Stay ahead of yourself and know that at the end of the day, YOU LOVE YOURSELF ENOUGH TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD and bringing your quit with you EVERY step, EVERY second, EVERY minute, EVERY hour OF EVERY DAY!!!! Don't give up on yourself because he/she NEEDS you to protect them with YOUR LIFE!!!!! From my own experience, YOU MUST WATCH WHAT YOU SAY TO YOURSELF!!!! Love yourself like you do an infant & protect yourself/quit.