Today is just wearing me down! Im so exhausted.. I feel like Im about to lose it.. WTH?? I thought these days were long gone.. Im on day 11.. My 2 1/2 yr old is on every last nerve.. Iknow so bad to say, but shes not listening to anything I say.. and Ive yelled at her which makes me cringe.. I think how horrible that is.. And I think wouldnt it be better to smoke a cigarette then yell at my daughter.. Ive cried.. I dont know what else to do.. Im getting ready right now to meet my husband at a networking function.. all I can think about is stoppind and buying me a pack of smokes and just smoking one and throwing the rest out.. God please help me be stronger.. I have no idea why today and yesterday have been so hard.. I was doing so good(and cold turkey at that).. I wasnt even getting cravings! I dont understand this.. I do know that in the last couple nights my 8 month old has woken up in the middle of the night so I havent been geting the best of sleep.. Could that be whats causing this?? I dont know.. I read the article on whyquit.com on all the ones that lost their life to this horrible addiction and that has been helping me.. But for some reason here in the last couple days I cant shake this.. I was just upstairs getting ready and had to come and post this blog for some kind of answer?? Thanks..
