When I received medical news that shook me to the core, causing me to throw away my 5 year smoke-free record, I was in deep. Hooked. When in a naive state of mind, thought that just a couple of cigarettes wouldn't be a problem. Just to ease my shaken nerves. a couple of cigarettes turned into at least six months worth of smoking cigarettes and at least five or six attempts to quit yet I was hooked. I'd always found a reason to come right back to the pack. Making excuses. Twice I'd tried nicotine replacement therapy but failed. At this moment, I am on round three using nicotine replacement therapy. This time, there's no going back.
Why have I decided to quit again after five years smoke-free?
1.) I am a Christ-Follower and as a Christ-Follower, I want to walk like Jesus and do what He would have me do and avoid what He would have me avoid.
2.) I love my family and my husband so immensely. I don't want to purposely do anything that would endager my life in any way, causing them heartache, greif, or sadness.
3.) Though I am battling medical issues, smoking cigarettes doesn't make my situation any better. As a matter of fact, it only makes things worse, and I know that it does. I want to do all that I can to live out the healthiest, happiest life that I can.
4.) Both my husband and I quit together and we were both 5 years smoke-free. I don't want to see him struggle with cigarettes any more. It saddens me that it was me that brought the cigarettes back into the picture and I want to do all that I can to keep them far far away from our lives.
5.) Though I am struggling with medical issues, I want to be as healthy as I can and it is our hope that soon, we can start a family, my husband and I. Cigarettes cannot and will not be in the picture. I want them to be a thing of the past.
It was a big mistake in collapsing when hearing the shocking medical news and heading straight for the cigarettes. I wish that I could go back in time and undo what I did but I can't. All that I can do is go forward. Learn from my mistakes.
This comeback is going to be one for the books! 🙂
