Who is counting...I am

[Susie49]

July 1 and what a good day it is, I lost my long quit (March 29-2013 to June  28- 2014)    I missed my husband so much..why I thought a couple of smokes would bring him back????  I missed...wanted...thought...cryed...snuck a few cigs from a friends pack....sat on my deck alone and smoked and cryed and ya know what John did not come back to me........I brushed my teeth...washed my stinky hands and I feel so much better....maybe I did need to find out I really do not need a smoke to move on.....Thanks for letting me ramble on...such good people you all are...Susie

[msgardengirl320]

I lost my 9 yr quit when my husbnd doed. He was 46 & died of melanoma. It didn't even dawn on me when I smoked that 1st one that it would lead to many years of smoking until I quit this time. I will never do that again.  WE usually have to learn the hard way. I have no doubt you will be successful this time! Don't even look back!

[pazzamess]

Hang in there - forgive yourself and get going again

[summer-07-06-15]

I have to agree with pazzamess. Glad to have you back before it really got worse. Take care

[Deena-A-Yenni]

Hope you feel better.

[smorgy8513]

You did it before....you can do it now.    And you learned something.....smoking does NOT bring back those we love that have gone on.      glad you Quit Quick!

Sharon 331 DOF

[marilyn_marmac]

Sending soothing hugs and a shoulder your way. I'm so sorry for the pain you are trying to cope with. I'm glad you understand that the cigarettes were your way of trying to cope and that you realized it didn't change anything. It's done, and hopefully out of your system now. You can get right back on your quit and more important, you just taught yourself and us a valuable lesson...smoking doesn't cure anything. ((((HUGS)))) 

[karen230]

I send you healing hugs as well. Marilyn said it all so well! When we are hurting so badly we seek any solace....but glad you realized quickly that smoking is not going to sooth any thing. I like words I heard from Dale.....the only way out is through. Grief has its own timetable for each of us. I found after losing my son that I just had to allow the storms to rage and wait patiently for the sun to shine.

(((((((HUGS))))))))