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What would you do???

luliper
Member
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I have a friend who has stage IV cancer and is recieving palliative care in a long term nursing facility. Over the last year I have observed her condition deteriorate drastically. She was inpatient in an acute care hospital for the last few months and was not able to get out for any reason. Now that she is in the nursing home, she has asked me to bring her cigarettes and take her out to smoke. She looks so frail and emaciated and very very sick. The addiction still haunts her. She knows she is going to die soon. She wants to smoke. The same kind of cigarettes I smoke  and I would have to keep them with me because she is not allowed to have them with her in her room. I realize that these may be some of her final wishes, however, I also know that it could and probably would wreck my quit. There are not many other people in her  life who can do this for her. So tell me please what you would do. I am not going to do this for her however it is causing me a great deal of angst to have to tell her no. Thanks for listening.

13 Comments
JonesCarpeDiem

have someone who was not a smoker or someone who still smokes do it.

laura-live-long

luliper my heart goes out for your friend and you. but i'm sorry if it was me i would have to protect my quit. dale's idea sounds really good. get someone else. ya'll are in my prayers peace be with you. PROTECT THAT QUIT  🙂

peaches20
Member

Yeah, this is a tough one.  I've strengthed my resolve to quit, be quit and stay quit watching a friend of mine struggle with a form of oral cancer that has taken his tongue and most recently his larnyx.  I've been literally scared straight!!

In answer to your questions, what would I do - I'm a softy and could not bear to turn my dying friend down, knowing this would be a final request.  I'd simply buy a pack for each visit that she was requesting to smoke, give her the cigarette(s) she wants - then destroy/throw away the pack before I left from her.  In other words, I would not take anything with me from these visit but my love for my friend and the visual of the horrible consequence of this addiction - something that might actually help me to STAY quit.

I wish you luck in any case.  I'm sorry about your friend - that truly sucks.

mzmelanie
Member

I'm so sorry about your friend! I wouldn't bring her any and I would be honest about why and that is that you've quit and you need her to respect your wishes. Good Luck in whatever you chose to do and STAY QUIT

Ex_Nancy
Member

I would speak to her family and other friends if she truly wants this...you are new in your quit (again) and I would STRONGLY advise you NOT to do such a thing...when my little sister was dying at Hospice, she didn't  smoke altho she was a "die-hard" smoker...then the nursing staff put her on oxygen and she told them she had never been able to breathe so well....

butt-kicker
Member

HI Luliper,

That is quite a conundrum. I understand,,, I would do anything for a dying friend too. Maybe tell her or ask her exactly what you just wrote here?? What would she do if she were you?

If you know that having/carrying cigs would destroy your quit, then like Dale says get someone else to get them for her,,or peaches has a great idea too. Just destroy any remainders before you walk out the door. A small price to pay to make your friend happy and not feel so torn. I am so sorry for what you're going through. Such a hard thing, I know. I will keep you and your friend in my prayers! Stay strong no matter what! We'll be here for you girl!

Hugs

Diane

luliper
Member

Thank you for your ideas and suggestions. I want to be there for Angel wether or not I bring her smokes. I appreciate the way you guys got your empathy going it really is a hard place to be. I will figure it out and will do what I can to protect my quit. I take it very seriously and do not want to mess up. I thinik that life can be very hard when we have to watch loved ones dying. we all face that eventuality I think it can be a very life changing experience for the ones left behind.

IrishRose
Member

What would you do if you gave her a coffin nail, and as she was puffing away, she started coughing real bad, fell over, and...???

Go to the blogs and read Moe's blog.

Would you want that one on your conscience???  I wouldn't, especially when I am trying to protect my quit.

MoeUnfiltered
Member
Dear Lul, protect your quit protect your quit protect your quit I am a nicotine junkie. I know you love her. But are you a nicotine junkie too? You can carry anything like that on you. Therefore it's not good for your quit to do it. Whether you find someone else to do it is up to you. Be short about telling her you don't need a debate right now. *** Lul ,your quit is #1. Not one puff no matter what! Sorry about your friend's sickness. Moe smoke free since 2/5/10
stonecipher
Member

I think at this point it is like taking Kentucky Fried Chicken to the terminal heart patient.  I think if you decide to bring her cigarettes and take her outside to smoke them,  you are honoring the wish of a friend.  And you should not feel responsible for any discomfort she may have as a result.

  As for keeping them with you in between visits?  I wouldn't.  I know that recently when my dad (not a smoker and not an issue) was in a nursing home/rehab situation, their smoking policy allowed it, at certain times.  Aides took them out, and the staff kept the cigarettes and lighter for the residents.  Are you sure there isn't a similar arrangement where your friend is?

stonecipher
Member

And, as someone much wiser and farther along in their quit keeps reminding us,

"Nobody can make you smoke.  Only YOU can make you smoke."

JonesCarpeDiem

i don't believe many have grown their quits strong enough at three weeks to perform this request.

stonecipher
Member

Good point, Dale.  I notice that the long-term quitters here tend to take the hard line more than the newly quit, who are still seeing shades of gray.  Quite possibly this is WHY they have long, successful quits--seeing things in black and white, no deviation, total committment.  So I am coming to believe this is what works.