Since December 28th, 07, i haven't smoked; nada one.
its hard man, but the lesson i learned is that things pass- just pass a lot easier and faster when i can smoke them away.
now that i dont smoke, the thought to smoke passes, and i have the need to fix the things that elicit the urge to smoke in me. chnange all those other things has been the hardest part.
i read a girl talking about roller coasting yesterday; i was sure when i quit i'd be locked up for some kind of problem, just becuase all feelings are so emphasized when i can't numb them with a ciggarrette. now, especially as a woman who's been socilalized to "follow her heart" i've had an epiphany, feelings pass.
As an ex, I'm me, and i face things. I'm mandated to, but it's also the choice.
or, maybe the lesson that, even if i did smoke, the problem or the challenge would still be there.
my new mantra is...
"If smoking kimberly could do anything, non-smoking kimberly is UNSTOPPABLE!"
