I'm back.
First of all, I have no idea how I got that goofy username and if anyone knows how I can change it let me know.
Like I said, I'm back. I blogged one short sentence, something to the effect that I failed.
I haven't checked to see if anyone commented.
Anyway.
Anger got me. I didn't know I was so angry. At myself mostly for letting people put me in uncomfortable situations. What I "put up" with, how I let myself get taken advantage of.
Letting myself be backed into corners. Feeling several ways about the situation, wanting good things for the person, but letting the undercurrent of anger and frustration build up and finally venting it.
So. Here's a LIVING situation I learned the hard way about.
I want to work on communication and setting boundaries ... feel good about myself.
I read my list of reasons beforehand.
I hadn't got rid of all my tobacco. I wanted to sell it. I have a machine.
Smoke covers up the anger in a way, not sure how to explain it. Maybe I'm just so used to penting up my anger and smoking all the time. That's how I deal with anger, I smoke.
I was too impatient to deal with myself.
What's going on is that there is a person mistreating me, knows all my buttons, has forced his way into my house.
See I have lots of work to do.
The anger came out when he was gone.
