Sorry I haven't been here for awhile but all my days lately seem to be a blob, actually I usually don't even know what day it is. My Mom passed away on June 7th and we really weren't expecting it. So many things are changing in my life and I have had so many opportunities to and felt so much at times like giving up and getting my _ _ _ in my car and buying a pack of smokes and smoking about 10 all at once but I didn't, don't ask me why, it's a mystery to me. The only thing I can think of is that deep down inside I really do not want to smoke anymore and by the grace of God I wont. The other day I went outside to look at my garden and enjoy a little sunshine, my neighbor walked by and I am not kidding, he blew a cloud of smoke right in my face, it went right up my nose and I just started coughing and practically gagging and waving away the smoke, I said, thanks God, you just reminded me I really don't want to smoke anymore. It's been over 100 days and I just want to thank all of you precious people again for all your help, advice and understanding and I hope I can inspire even one person to be strong, to hang in there and never take another puff, you can do it.
Love you all and I thank God for all of you.
