Missed my quit date (2/13/15). I don't think I was as well prepared mentally as what I should have been or perhaps thought I was. One week later I'm in my doctor's office with a cold so severe that I was certain it had to be pneumonia or the flu. Haven't felt that bad in a long time. She ended our visit with "Don't smoke - it's not worth it". Feeling as awful as I did I vowed not to smoke again. I was going cold turkey! No NRT at home & too ill to go get something. Well that lasted for 2.5 days, for most of which I was in bed waiting for the body aches, etc. to diminish and getting the sleep my body needed to improve. Once I started to feel a little better the craving hit me. Really bad & lasted for over an hour. As hard as I tried nothing I did to preoccupy myself made it go away. So I gave in & had a cigarette. The nicotine hit me like a freight train; light headed, heart pounding. I still want so desperately to quit smoking, but I don't know if I'll be able to overcome the terrible cravings. I keep telling myself others get through it & can't understand why I can't. Anyone out there that's dealt with relapse after such a short time? Does the NRT patch help more than using gum or lozenges? Also, I'm being treated for anxiety disorder. I really could use some guidance or else I won't make it through this. Thanks for listening.
