Trying

[malani2010]

My dad's funeral is on Monday! I don't think I'm going to make it. We had the first viewing of his body yesterday and I completely LOST it. I refused to go into the room for like 20 min and after that I had to have help just walking into it to see him. (Although this was all from hubby because I don't remember a single bit of it.) My father was such a strong, wonderful, Godly man and I miss him so much. My mind isn't letting me remember he is gone. I just keep thinking I will talk to him tomorrow!!! I can't believe I never will. AHHHHH

[babs13]

Oh Malani,

I'm so sorry that you have to go through this.  It is a very difficult time for most people.  When I lost my Mom, my husband had to "steer" me in the right direction, for me to take each step.  I swear, that I was more Zombie than anything.

You will survive this, one baby step (steered by hubby or not) at a time.  More prayers coming your way...

[donna-b2]

my heart breaks for you  i feel the same way about my dad who just turned 91. im facing the same thing before to long and it scares the hell out of me.   try and stay strong and don't be afraid to lean on the people who love you.

[babs13]

One more thing, Malani,

Just because your Dad has passed away, you don't  have to stop talking to him.  I talk to my Mom at lot, still.  I have found her to be one of my best listeners.  More times than not, I already know what she would say back to me anyway.  Be gentle with yourself, you will be tender for a while.   

[2012_is_for_me]

I lost my Dad almost a year ago and I know that what you're experiencing is the hardest thing in the world and you're in a vacuum right now.  I'm so sorry for what you and your family are going through.  Time just moves so weirdly, don't know how else to say it.   hope you know that smoking will not change or stop anything you're feeling, so might as well keep your quit.  Don't throw guilt and aggravation on top of the grief.  What you're doing is soooo hard.  Be kind to yourself and let others be kind to you. Sending you a hug.  Good luck on Monday. 

[malani2010]

I'm still SMOKE FREE but it hasn't been easy!

[JonesCarpeDiem]

it's so sad to lose a parent.

i am sorry for your loss

smoking never helps.

relax into Gods gentle arms and be at peace as your father is.

[myprettypower]

Good for you! It amazes me how strong you are. Thanks for sharing, your story helped motivate me to continue. If you can with so much going on, I can too. I'm sorry for your loss. Good luck.

[meagain3]

So Sorry.

[Yaya2.6.10]

Please know that I'm sending hugs and prayers your way. 

[pir8fan]

Prayers are coming your way! Stay strong my friend! We are here for you!

[Denise3]

so sorry

[Strudel]

I am so very sorry for the loss of your dad. Did he know about your quit? If so, I bet he was so proud!! Please continue to make him - and yourself - proud - by protecting your quit! Smoking will not change a single thing about this difficult time. You can do this!