Guess you all figured he's still here. Lot's of crying by both of us and me feeling so sorry for the guy, don't ask me why, probably because my birth certificate says Female. He's asking for a probationary period to spend his life making me happy, blagh, blagh, blagh. I think the thing that did it for me was my son, he would probably hate being the one who gave this guy another chance. But, in an email to him I said "why do I feel so sad for this guy", my son said "because you care for him and he's not a bad guy, just has a bad disease that gets in the way of happiness". It touched me that someone understood what I was feeling and this is so hard. I know I will probably be back in, I'll give it a month, crying the blues again. But it's been a learning experience for both of us, he didn't think he could be removed so easily, frankly I didn't either so at least I have the knowledge now. Thanks for all your concerns. AND, I'm still not smoking, that's the important thing.
