I’ve been thinking about this for a long time. At least it seems like a long time since I picked up that damn cigar and started smoking again. But they are disgusting, nasty things that are making me sick. I don’t like the smell on me, I don’t like the coughing that I am doing once again, I don’t like any of the side effects that come with smoking. I know why I quit the first time and the same holds true today. I value my health and I have tried so hard in many ways to get healthy, and smoking is not a part of that lifestyle. I’m so mad at myself for throwing away seven months cigarette free, but I know I can do this again. I’ll need your support because it won’t be easy. HELL week is about to start. I’m hoping that it won’t be quite as difficult as before because I have not been smoking nearly as much as when I quit the first time. But I know it WON’T BE EASY. I finally have my mind in the right place and it’s time to do it! I’m sorry that I’ve been absent on the site recently, but I really needed to get my head straight before thinking of doing this again. I miss my friends and I hope that you will be there to support me as you were before!
Tomorrow when I wake up, I will do things differently, my routines will change once again, I will have my sour candy on hand and lots of water to hydrate. And I will start walking again instead of smoking. My quit with alcohol has been an awesome success, and now that I am settled in that respect I feel that I can do the same with smoking once again! Thank you my friends and I will see you tomorrow!
Tracy🤗💕
