I'm about to wrap up my "day 4" in 10 minutes. So far, today has been a struggle. I know part of that is because it is Valentine's Day, which has me down. I keep thinking about how I could go buy some and smoke for a few hours and start over again tomorrow. That is what I was doing for the week or so before I quit this time. I would buy a pack, chainsmoke for 3 or 4 hours, crush the rest of the pack, not smoke for like 18 or more hours and then do the same thing the next day.
I'm going to go for a short walk. Hopefully that will make me feel a bit better. Thanks for listening.