In another five hours, it will be exactly 21 days since I stubbed out my last cigarette. There is a quiet sense of satisfaction for staying strong and staying quit. Absolutely no craves, no triggers in the past few days.
Physical withdrawal must be completely over by now. If I ever think of smoking from now on, it shall be more of a conscious decision rather than the lizard brain doing the talking.
I have only succeeded in arresting the addiction. Should never forget that I still am an addict for nicotine and will always will be, only that now, as long as I stay quit, my addiction will remain asymptomatic.
It was such foolishness on my part to fall back into the clutches of the nicodemon after giving it up for the best part of two years. Hope I don't repeat the stupidity ever again.
Today, the day started as perfectly as I could ever conceive. Woke up, said my prayers and went out for a very relaxed 3 mile run. The weather was extremely humid, so the going was very slow. Forced myself to complete the distance, went back home for a calming session of pranayama and completed my journal entry for the day.
At work, lacked focused and was not very productive.
Now that the crisis of the early days of the quit is largely over, its probably time for me to shift my focus on to other pressing matters - like improving my productivity at my workplace.
There have been a few friends whose quits have run almost concomitant with mine. I wish them, and everybody else on this quit journey, all the very best.
We've got only one life to live and its a far better life, without nicotine destroying it.
