Thoughts....

[mskim2016]

This will sound terrible, but I literally could go buy a pack of cigs and start smoking them one right after another. I feel like I could do that and the addict in me is doing a little happy dance. In reality though, I would feel like absolute garbage. And I would be so disappointed in myself. I would take that first hit off a cig and think "ahhhhh" and then that would be it. I would hate it. But I wouldn't be able to stop. I would keep smoking until that pack was gone, even if it took a day or two. And then what would I do? More than likely go buy another pack...and before I know it, months, maybe even a year or two, would go by until I hated it enough to quit again. 

I am okay. I will be okay. I'm hanging in there. I will not smoke. I'm going to distract myself with some work. 🙂