It's almost been two weeks! I still haven't told anyone I'm working with, except for one professor (who isn't in much since he's on phased retirement). I don't know, I just don't like to brag. Around my friends, I have been bragging on Facebook and the like, but not so much in person. I guess I think of it less as an accomplishment and more of something that I should have done a long time ago. 😄
My neighbors were in my apartment the other day and were smoking. I'm fine with it for the most part, because being around them reminds me of how I used to be. I can watch them smoking, look at how someone looks when they are smoking, and see that I don't want that to be me anymore. The cigarettes stink, the ashtray stinks (it's a nice one I got from my grandma with a scene from Luxemburg made from pottery; I really shouldn't let them use it, but it's the only one I kept), they stink. They were down for about 4 hours the other night, and they smoked almost an entire pack between the two of them. I used to light up every time they did. I wasn't a very heavy smoker until I was around heavy smokers, then I lit up more. It was like "ooh, they're lighting a cig, that sounds good right now," kind of process.
Now, though, I just observe them and their addiction. It feels great to have broken free from it!
Reasons why I'm happy I quit:
-I can breathe better
-I don't have to use my inhaler as much
-I don't stink
-I'm not tied down to a pack of cigarettes; I don't have to make sure I have them or find a place to put them if I'm wearing pants without pockets
-I don't have to stand out in the cold, rain, or snow to get my fix (although it is warming up! But, I plan on walking during my old "smoke breaks" instead to enjoy the weather)
-My mouth doesn't have that nasty taste in it anymore
-My fingers are no longer stained yellow
-I don't start to get antsy if I'm doing something for longer than an hour and a half to two hours and can't smoke
-My head feels clearer
My one complaint is that I haven't been sleeping very well at all lately. I've had a very hard time falling asleep, and have been waking up constantly throughout the night. I am waking up on time with no problems, but I need some sleep! Hopefully it will start to taper off as I get closer to the two week mark. 🙂
