I m done. No matter what I am not smoking again. This time my attitude has changed. I have no desire to smoke again. I don t care what happens I refuse to smoke. I think the book quit smoking the easy way by Allen carr is helping me so much. I am in so much fear because my throat is starting to hurt all the time and it is so dry. I am not letting nicotine control me for one more day of my life. I am going to stick very close to my support here at becomeanex and stay in contact with my quit smoking coach and talk to my we and pray a whole lot more this time. I am in it to win it and I am going to win. The only way I can win is by totally surrendering this thing to God, every second of every day. It time to face the fact that someday I have to quit or it is going to take my life. today is the day that I am crossing over. God bless and please pray that God keeps me strong. I have the faith and I am going to move this mountain.
