This Time For Good!

[thistimeforgood2]

Okay...so I've tried quitting so many times I lost count! I'm so sick of smoking! I'm sick of the smell...I'm sick of trying to find a place to smoke on my smoke-free campus --- I'm sick of feeling like a failure every time I light up! I'm tired of this game of who's really in control! Is it me controlling the cigarettes or the other way around? This time I must quit for good! I know there are many things from my childhood still affecting my decision to continually light up. Growing up in an abusive environment, it was the one thing I could control! I want to be free from this evil drug! I've thrown packs of cigarettes away out of disgust, only to dig them back out again an hour later. I use stress as an excuse to keep buying them --- I know the dang things are killing me! Why is it so difficult to quit? I just want to erase the memory of smoking from my brain --- I wish I would have never started! I feel sick every time I smoke. I get nauseous from the smell and hate the taste -- why...do I keep doing this to myself? I hate being a slave to cigarettes! So.....on 1/27/12 I quit "this time for good" --- I will succeed!!!

[lois13]

welcome new one as a non smoker you can, bet this addiction, it takes time, you are in control

[JonesCarpeDiem]

are you ready this time?

Have you planned?

Have you figured out what makes you keep going back to smoking?

Its a good idea to have a "good idea"

[thistimeforgood2]

I can't quite figure out why I keep going back to smoking --- I certainly don't crave it --- I always feel like I can have "just one" --- but even I know I can't!! Yet.....I test the waters every time only to start smoking more than I was to begin with. When I started, I was a 14 year old who was being abused at home (sexually, physically and emotionally). The only thing I can think of was that I started to feel in control, as I had no control at home and beatings were endless. I wanted to be accepted into a family -- that family at the time happened to be a bunch of seasoned smokers more than willing to help a friend out. When I think back, I was just a kid wanting to feel some sort of love --- sneaking out smoking with my friends gave me that sense of family. Now, I have no reason to smoke! I have a loving husband and a beautiful nine year old son. I've forgiven my abuser and speak out publicly on child abuse. I feel I am healed from that experience...except for this one thing. I feel like this is the last thing I have to deal with head on in order to fully recover from a brutal past of abuse. My plan is getting on here and participating -- often times when I've quit prior, I've done it in silence and alone. I now know I need support and lots of it. I know my triggers and have been tracking my cigarettes for a while now. I feel like I'm ready!

[bella65]

hi welcome to the site.just like dale said.plan read,blog.ask for help and you will suceed i will promise you that.we are here for you.:]

[Yaya2.6.10]

Hooray for your decision to Quit and welcome to the site.  Use the links here to educate yourself about the addiction.  I found it mandatory that I told everyone in my real world that I was going to start my Quit and gave them the date.  Support came from places I didn't expect and made up for the folks that I had disappointed for years and were unable to give me their full support.  It also made me determined not to fail in front of all those folks. 

[melissa131]

There is a person here who has suffered such abuse, she is quit. Perhaps she will come around. But honestly in my involvement with 12 step groups they really do help and are free. you might want to see if there is a smoke enders group in your town, or give a look to the 12 steps. Because sooner or later you have to forgive your family, and yourself and anyone else in volved to really be free. 

Meanwhile, quitting smoking is the single best thing you can do for your self esteem,  so read the Allen Carr book and go to quitsmokng online do the steps there. And you will be on your way to feeling so much better, then you can work on any emotions that come up after you quit. 

I have seen several therapists, I wasn't abused, but for some reason gravitated towards dysfuntional relationships. Once I had my son I realized, drinking and running around with bad boys wasn't an option anymore, I quit those things, and then dealt with the "stuff". ( Co-dependants annonymous) (AA) and (NA). 

This place is a Godsend, you can do this, just read what they tell you to, and keep coming back it works. if you work it, as they say..:)

[TheNewMe_Jo]

welcome.. you can do anything you want. you can achieve anything you want.. just gotta be willing to to do what it takes to get there.

you sound ready. That's how I was, just sick of it.

If you get a craving or an urge to light up, just scream at yourself NO !!!!

No matter what, dont smoke.. thats all there is to it,

[babs13]

Hi,

Welcome to the site.

I tried many times too, to quit smoking, but was not successful til I found this site.

Now, I am a very happy non-smoker, and have been smoke free for 50 days!  I smoked for over 40 years! 

I highly reccomend that you do some important reading, as soon as you can.

http://digg.com/news/lifestyle/Allen_Carr_s_Easy_Way_To_Stop_Smoking_Download_free_PDF

http://www.whyquit.com

http://quitsmokingonline.com/

http://www.whyquit.com/joel/dayzero.htm

http://www.whyquit.com/whyquit/A_FreeRelapseInsurance.html

After this much reading, there may be more suggestions from other Exer's. 

Then, all you will have to do for a successful quit is to: 

Read, Blog, Repeat.  

Yes, it's that simple.

You're going to love it.  Freedom is the best feeling.  I'm glad you found us!

Babs