This Time For Good!

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Okay...so I've tried quitting so many times I lost count! I'm so sick of smoking! I'm sick of the smell...I'm sick of trying to find a place to smoke on my smoke-free campus --- I'm sick of feeling like a failure every time I light up! I'm tired of this game of who's really in control! Is it me controlling the cigarettes or the other way around? This time I must quit for good! I know there are many things from my childhood still affecting my decision to continually light up. Growing up in an abusive environment, it was the one thing I could control! I want to be free from this evil drug! I've thrown packs of cigarettes away out of disgust, only to dig them back out again an hour later. I use stress as an excuse to keep buying them --- I know the dang things are killing me! Why is it so difficult to quit? I just want to erase the memory of smoking from my brain --- I wish I would have never started! I feel sick every time I smoke. I get nauseous from the smell and hate the taste -- why...do I keep doing this to myself? I hate being a slave to cigarettes! So.....on 1/27/12 I quit "this time for good" --- I will succeed!!!